Andrea von Kaenel's Coming Out page

Well, if you are curious enough to have gotten this far I'll spare you any more hints and just tell it like it is.

My name is Andrea von Kaenel and I am a transsexual. Before you get the wrong idea - let me explain. No I'm not into some strange sexual thing, I'm not a drag queen, I'm not a transvestite. I have been diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder (GID). GID means my internal gender is in conflict with my outward appearance & physical biology. It is about gender conflict and not sexual orientation. In short - I had a female gender and a male body. I tried for 38 years to make my gender match my body - with no success at all. After I understood more about GID - I decided that the only way not to be in conflict was to make my body match my gender. So, I've gone through the process of making my physical appearance & biology female.

You might be thinking that this is crazy - changing your body to be female!? Well, it is not crazy at all. Only thing crazy is that it took me so long to figure out what to do. I've spent my entire life (since I was 5) feeling like something was wrong. Inside I've always felt female - but on the outside I looked male. Trouble was and is, I didn't know how to behave like a male. I had to observe, practice and learn to act like a "man". None of it was natural - it was an act. I hid who I was so I could fit in and make the act believable. But it wasn't the real me. The real me, is the person I hid, inside. I was alone, scared and lived in fear for 38 years! I resolved this conflict and became a whole person, a female person. First smart thing I've done in ages!

I've got all sorts of strange stories I can tell. I can shock you (more than this). I can give you all kinds of strange, painful, gory details. But, I'd rather not dwell too much on the past. Many good things are happening in my life. I've met and become friends with some wonderful people. I have a new sense of well being and happiness. I like the person I'm becoming. And I don't look at what I did as a big negative, rather it has been very positive. If you are still interested in knowing more - please ask - all honest questions will be answered honestly!

Do you really want to know?